Tuesday June 16. 2015 * He left today. I was so cold, no hug or kiss goodbye. I liked him too much & it made me uncomfortable & probably ruined the weekend. He came on Friday after I issued the challenge of proving to me that he'd do that for me. He was sweet, fun, sexy all weekend, talked of me finding a place up there closer to him. I'm so confused. And I didn't think I would, but I miss him. I hate being whatever this is, & this thing that keeps a wall between me and the world.