"A flower does not think of competing to the flower next to it just blooms." --- Everything is you and God thing, and there is nobody else involved. So comparing or competing is just waste of time. Keep focusing on yourself, focusing of loving yourself.
I want him to look at me and realize I may not be waiting for him to make up his mind forever. I want him to be scared that I will get tired and leave. I want him to make a move. I want him to at least acknowledge his feelings, or even lack thereof.