The Heart wants what it wants. There's no logic to it. You meet someone, you fall in love and there's no turning back . "Your Heart knows things your mind can't explain" . "The mind replays what the Heart can't delete.
I am not me anymore. That is the simple and plain truth. I am no longer that Dutch student who lived a boring life in the south of Holland. I am an Element of Nature, result of a botched experiment. I am a reanimated corpse.