Ah yes, as opposed to just a wonderfully intelligent woman. Ever hear anyone refer to a man as dangerous for being well-read? However I believe it is that the well-read men with abusive tendencies that make the most dangerous abusers of all.
The sun will rise again tomorrow, so if something didn't work out today, try again tomorrow or the day after. With chronic illnesses, fatigue and pain will often change or limit your plans. Don't worry--let it go.