I wish that you could see yourself through my eyes. I wish that you could feel every emotion I feel when I see you. That way you could understand how much you mean to me, and what I would feel if I ever lost you.
What it comes down to is your actions in the end. As the saying goes actions speak louder than words. We can make careful plans if needed to to end relationships we do not wish to stay in. Start making plans for the life you want.
I hate how you act like I am so much to deal with when all I've done was sit here and let you repeatedly hurt me. Im sorry im not perfect mom. One day ill be gone so you wont have to deal with me ever again.