I read a book on this exact subject written by a psychologist. The book was titled Control Theory by William Glasser M.D. Great read.
There will be times in our life that we would want to do something that we think will make us feel alive or make this life more meaningful. But as long as we do things that our heart desires it could make us happy and make us feel we are alive.
I think this fits the way I feel completely or the last 2 years I've just been stuck and I don't know how to take the first step out
The moment you feel like giving up, remember all the reasons you held on for so long